Little Mermaid

Tommorow is a really long day with me.
The doctor said that operation is so easy and it's only 2 hours and I'll not feel hurt so much. After that my heart will be very ok. I know it's just 2 hours for waiting.

So...don't really want to talk with anyone about this . Because it's just a really small problem .

My working takes me almost the time, and Jiro doesn't feel well now.

I can feel the cold winds blows through the trees on the streets and many people started wearing coats.

Another winter is coming.

Time goes so fast. Sometimes I just only want to hold the time so It can't go fastly like that.

Can I really have my simple happiness . They're just that I can walk slowly with my lover through the streets , can see him every morning when I wake up, can make for us hot coffee in a cold early morning, can hold his hand whenever I need him.

Can I do and have all those things I want.

Another Winter is coming that means another time is passing.

Maybe today I've got some sadness .
It's from the bad weather and from my mind . When he said with me that he has been hurt because of my words , so I think the better way is my silent .
He's silent, too and doesn't want to reply my mail.
What does he want now ? I can't know the answer in his mind.
I wish I could go to another place and live a life without anybody around me . Maybe, the lonely will kill me day by day but It's better than the feeling in my heart now.

Feeling down and down without any reason why !!!

All the people who is around me, make me be tired and I make them be tired , too. And the better way is I should live far away from them .
When you're acquainted with your loneliness in a long time and then you tie your mind with another connections and relations , you sock, in doubt and feel more lonely because they think you're really a trouble although they like or love you much .

That's is my situation.

Every body has a dream, but I don't have . With me, They're just the nightmare . They come to me every night and then, when I wake up in the mornings , my face always has tears. Why can every body sleep well at nights but I can't ? Even,in a long time I didn't want to sleep at nights.

Feel down and down !!!!

The rain hasn't stopped yet and it covered all things the wet water. Under the rain fall, who can see anything ? Just an empty feeling in my soul .